A much needed break

So life has all these crazy loopty loo's, and winding roads that sometimes I take a detour. I had to take this detour. If not for anything else but my sanity. I had a bunch of things coming at me and I did try to prioritize my time a little better, but for cripes sake I am a Libra.. I love procrastination and I love being lazy.
Lets see whats going on?... Well, I got into a set schedule.. Really I had no choice. I was up before the sun gets out every morning, helping out family. Basically what that entails is picking up my brother and dropping him off at work, then bringing his daughter here to be watched until his wife gets out of work. Both of them changed their schedules, and sooooo. Here we are to help... So as soon as i get back with baby, I have to get my other niece ready to go to school Then actually take her. Not to mention I have to go to school also. Aside from school, and family life there has been my socializing life. Which should be the majority of time. I spend a lot of time bullshitting with people.
Lilly (my dog) has taken a front seat also. I have been religiously taking her to the dog park. She needs it, and the walking sure does help me out. I have been meeting the coolest people.. It is kinda funny though, cause I run into the hottest guys ever, and then they kill it with a small yapper dog, here I am with a Pit Bull.. and he has a small ankle biter. LOL.. I can't help but laugh at that. I mean really? I feel more masculine than the guys... Ha ha If it aint pit.. it aint shit right? Apparently not.
I have actually taken a slight break from any and all guys I have been dating. Even trophy! Especially Brandon. I figured fuck em! and not in the literal term, with good feelings.. I mean.. to hell with them.. I told phil that I am gonna cut everyone from the roster and start my harem all over again. So far so good!. I do still talk to my trophy, but sex not in a while, and really conversation and hanging out also not in a while. So I am done!
I have still been on my phone like a crack head. I have bought little gadgets and gizmos for it. I am always on it.. I love it. Ha ha.. I know crack head right.. I know..
I am trying to get creative.. but it just isnt coming to me.. I am in a cluster fuck.. my mind is in a rut.. I am trying to get it out. I will try to come back later today and really unload ok.. But I wanted to come back just for alittle..

who said a crack addiction was a bad thing?

I have a real problem. I mean REAL.. I have money problems. I just don't know how to right my wrongs. Ok, due to being unable to pay for my cell phone anymore (unemployment had taken way too long) my number for 3 years dissapeared and was more than likely reissued (bastards!) Me taking this as a sign that sprint should not be my carrier anymore anyways (I really did want a new service) I decide to "dick around" with other carriers. Since my credit is shot, I figured it would be hilarious to check out how much my deposits would be. So, wanting the Iphone probably the most, I try ATT..
Wow, ATT deminished any hope I had..After painstakingly (ok maybe that is a slight overexaggeration) filling out those online applications; ATT approved me for a GOPHONE.. REALLY?? who gets approved for a prepaid cell phone service?? I thought it was a guarantee.. A sure thing (like taking a skank to the prom in hopes of getting laid after...DUH!). I cant believe they are acting like they hooked me up. Like.. Here.. since u arent cool enough to get a REAL service with us, we will carpe launch you to our lovely PREPAID service.. Who does that? Dont they know I was a LOYAL customer of sprint the NOW NETWORK.. lol seriously.. how fuct up was that?
To my very best luck, I am on the phone with Phillip when I am conducting "research".. After a few failed attempts on my obviously fuct up credit, Phill feeling bad for me says, "why not try in my name?" I am a little taken aback by this. Wow.. he is in an exceptionally good mood today.. hmm.. So I say why not? for shits and giggles, let us see how much a deposit be for my bestie.. Knowing I dont have enough money on my UNEMPLOYMENT debit card.. ( I will next week though), I decide to just see what the damage would be. Never once when I was doing this had I thought it would actually go through so easily. So I pick out my Iphone, I pick the plan I want, and I click continue... I really was expecting a "sorry we cant approve you..blah blah" instead.. I get a confirmation on my order, and a thank you for choosing ATT.. Bastards.
I overdrew my unemployment. I for one did not think you could. But apparently you can. I am now 223 bucks overdrawn, which wednesday will be taking care of that, and I will spend one week almost broke, and my sister will understand when her rent is also a week late. The price we pay for our toys. I am for one grateful that phill let me use his credit to get me a phone, and that I do have unemployment to pay for my new phone. But deep down inside.. I know there is something wrong with me. haha..
Who does that? Who spends money on bullshit and is truly happy with it, even if I have absolutely no reason to have it.. I mean, did I really need to spend like 50 bucks on candles when I dont even burn them, I just like looking at them, and thinking of the most prescious moment I will burn them for.. Crazy. I spend money on my dog like I have a slight crack addiction. Bullshit is my crack though. Buying bullshit I should say. Cause you could bullshit me to death, and I would probably laugh my ass off.. But if you show me bullshit, I WILL BUY IT!!!! DAMMIT!!!
I am not having shoppers remorse.. Cause when my phone comes in either today or monday, I am gonna be like a crack addict, playing with that shiny new pipe he got, my phone calls will be like hits of crack.. I will be smoking and holding in. (I dont know if crack heads actually hold in the smoke.. i know pot heads do.. and I dont know why i even compared the 2..) but the phone is the pipe.. and any little play I do on my phone will be my hits of crack. I am extremely disturbed to even refer to my shopping habits like crack heads.. but it is now 805am on a saturday morning.. Whatever bitches! haha.. one day, i shall learn..