who said a crack addiction was a bad thing?

I have a real problem. I mean REAL.. I have money problems. I just don't know how to right my wrongs. Ok, due to being unable to pay for my cell phone anymore (unemployment had taken way too long) my number for 3 years dissapeared and was more than likely reissued (bastards!) Me taking this as a sign that sprint should not be my carrier anymore anyways (I really did want a new service) I decide to "dick around" with other carriers. Since my credit is shot, I figured it would be hilarious to check out how much my deposits would be. So, wanting the Iphone probably the most, I try ATT..
Wow, ATT deminished any hope I had..After painstakingly (ok maybe that is a slight overexaggeration) filling out those online applications; ATT approved me for a GOPHONE.. REALLY?? who gets approved for a prepaid cell phone service?? I thought it was a guarantee.. A sure thing (like taking a skank to the prom in hopes of getting laid after...DUH!). I cant believe they are acting like they hooked me up. Like.. Here.. since u arent cool enough to get a REAL service with us, we will carpe launch you to our lovely PREPAID service.. Who does that? Dont they know I was a LOYAL customer of sprint the NOW NETWORK.. lol seriously.. how fuct up was that?
To my very best luck, I am on the phone with Phillip when I am conducting "research".. After a few failed attempts on my obviously fuct up credit, Phill feeling bad for me says, "why not try in my name?" I am a little taken aback by this. Wow.. he is in an exceptionally good mood today.. hmm.. So I say why not? for shits and giggles, let us see how much a deposit be for my bestie.. Knowing I dont have enough money on my UNEMPLOYMENT debit card.. ( I will next week though), I decide to just see what the damage would be. Never once when I was doing this had I thought it would actually go through so easily. So I pick out my Iphone, I pick the plan I want, and I click continue... I really was expecting a "sorry we cant approve you..blah blah" instead.. I get a confirmation on my order, and a thank you for choosing ATT.. Bastards.
I overdrew my unemployment. I for one did not think you could. But apparently you can. I am now 223 bucks overdrawn, which wednesday will be taking care of that, and I will spend one week almost broke, and my sister will understand when her rent is also a week late. The price we pay for our toys. I am for one grateful that phill let me use his credit to get me a phone, and that I do have unemployment to pay for my new phone. But deep down inside.. I know there is something wrong with me. haha..
Who does that? Who spends money on bullshit and is truly happy with it, even if I have absolutely no reason to have it.. I mean, did I really need to spend like 50 bucks on candles when I dont even burn them, I just like looking at them, and thinking of the most prescious moment I will burn them for.. Crazy. I spend money on my dog like I have a slight crack addiction. Bullshit is my crack though. Buying bullshit I should say. Cause you could bullshit me to death, and I would probably laugh my ass off.. But if you show me bullshit, I WILL BUY IT!!!! DAMMIT!!!
I am not having shoppers remorse.. Cause when my phone comes in either today or monday, I am gonna be like a crack addict, playing with that shiny new pipe he got, my phone calls will be like hits of crack.. I will be smoking and holding in. (I dont know if crack heads actually hold in the smoke.. i know pot heads do.. and I dont know why i even compared the 2..) but the phone is the pipe.. and any little play I do on my phone will be my hits of crack. I am extremely disturbed to even refer to my shopping habits like crack heads.. but it is now 805am on a saturday morning.. Whatever bitches! haha.. one day, i shall learn..

do I have a sign that says full of 2nd chances here?

Geesh louise..
I swear I dont know what it is with people these days. I had a best friend for about 7 years. Her name is Lisa. I love her to death, she can be a total sweet heart. I overlook her faults and some of her lies, cause it really isnt that serious. But.. She kicked me when I was down. I needed her to be understanding to me for a little while longer. I owed her money, in a round about way. And it wasnt a very big amount.. My intent was as soon as my unemployment came through she was gonna be the first one paid, no doubt about it. She couldnt hang on one more week. she flipped out on me, called me and was cussing me out. I mean it was ridiculous. If she was ever my friend I dont think she should have ever treated me like that. I have done a lot for this girl, I have never asked to be repaid or thanked or anything, but I truly believed if you were my friend, you would be there for me .. fuck not even be there for me.. But dont kick me when I am down. that is some low shit. Something an enemy does.
Well.. Today I get a text from her that says.. "dude i need to talk to you" i text back
"about what".. I thought she was gonna bitch some more.. I honestly did.. But she didnt..
she texted back "i dont wanna lose you as a friend".. i sat there and thought about it for a minute.. This girl is a loyal person, for the most part.. If i were stranded, i would call her, she would come no questiones asked, and she would drop anything she was doing. That's why I can over look her being a douchebag. So I text back and I pretty much said that she hurt me a lot and that I really wasnt mad at her or hate her or anything like that, I just didnt need that kinda negativity in my life. She said I know Im sorry, blah blah.. which is cool.. For her to admit that shes sorry.. thats a big step for her. I decide to forgive.. I told her it will take time for us to be back how we were.. But we can start to hang out again.
I did miss her.. I kicked it with her everyday for 7 years. Literally, everyday. .. I dont know.. I guess I am a sucker for it. I dont know why either. I am too forgivng.. But hey, I just dont like being mad at people, and I dont like people mad at me.. I am such a damn pacifist..
So the funniest shit to me the past few days, even though I have been cluster fuct is this.. My dog Lilly, she is crazy. Ok I just got her those water thingy things, that have a big water bottle that fills into the bowl.. Well when they drink enough water the water bubbles bubble up.. she gets all freaked out like shes gonna attack it. It all trips her out.. Then she will drink, stop and look up at the bottle like.. ":are you gonna do it?" .. "if you're gonna do it.. im ready" "ok you can do it.. I am waiting now.. do it bitch" it is funny as shit.. oh my gosh.. the simple things in life are the shit.. fuck i love my dog.. she is such a doofus.. that should have been her name..